When the Walls Close In

Scripture:

For we walk by faith, not by sight.

— 2 Corinthians 5:7

There are moments in life when the weight of everything feels unbearable. For me, that

moment came in a hospital room after one of my fifteen surgeries. The walls felt like they were caving in. Machines beeped around me. The smell of antiseptic hung in the air. My body throbbed with pain from fresh incisions, and every movement felt like fire running through my veins. I stared at the ceiling, exhausted, afraid, and completely worn down. I whispered to God through the tears:

“I can’t do this anymore. I don’t have the strength. Please take this pain away.”

That was one of the rawest, most broken prayers I have ever prayed. And yet — it was also one of the most powerful for me. Because in that quiet cry, God reminded me that faith doesn’t require me to be strong. Faith is about leaning on His strength when mine is gone. As someone that has always been seen as strong, it was the weakest I have ever felt!!

Reflection

Faith doesn’t always look like bold confidence. Sometimes it looks like survival. Sometimes it looks like holding on by a thread. Sometimes it’s just a faint whisper of His Holy name.

Hebrews 11:1 says, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things

not seen.”

I couldn’t see healing. I couldn’t see the end of my pain. But in that dark night, faith anchored me to the truth that God was still with me, even when the walls were

pressing in.

Takeaway

If you’ve ever felt trapped — by sickness, grief, depression, or circumstances that suffocate you — know this: you’re not alone. Faith doesn’t always move mountains in an instant, but it does keep us standing when the weight of the mountain tries to crush us.

Prayer

Father, You know the nights when I felt like I couldn’t breathe under the weight of it all.

Thank You for being my strength when I had none, for being present when the walls were closing in. Remind me, and anyone reading this, that faith is not about being fearless but about trusting You, even in fear. Hold us steady, Lord, when life feels like too much. In Jesus’

name, Amen.